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I hope this is alright to share. I'm not officially linked to the AZE journal or its team, I just saw the post in my social media circles.

AZE is Raising Support to Continue Publication

Since its beginning, AZE has published 28 unique journal issues focused on exploring different themes and intersections related to sexuality, romance, gender, attraction, and intimacy. [...] I am immensely grateful to everyone who has supported AZE by reading and sharing the journal, leaving comments and social media posts, and donating through Patreon. Without your support, AZE would not have been able to continue for as long as it has now. With all of this being said, I am writing this with the hope of raising funds for AZE’s continued publication.

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Here's one of my favorite YouTube videos (from Way-ay-ay back in 2013) where an allosexual sex educator person talks about how she was educated about ace-ness: 5 Asexuality Experiences. And she has another good one, from just three years ago, about Demisexuality. Both of these are properly closed captioned in English, BTW.

You know, since most of my queer identity is defined by what I don't feel, I don't really feel very Queer at all (just a little bit queer, if I bother to stop and think about it).

But then, last March (2020), in her video "Artists and Fandoms,"* Abigail Thorn (writer and presenter of Philosophy Tube) said:

"Also, it is fun, and I enjoy being desired."


And my brain went: "Nope! nope-nope-nope! Nope! Do not Want! You can have mine, if you want seconds." I was surprised by the strength of my reaction, and I thought: "Gee! I guess I really am Not Straight. Huh. Whatcha know?"

Do I want to be loved? Absolutely! Do I want to be desired? No. Unfortunately, in most philosophical and aesthetic discussions, desire and love are almost synonymous. So it's hard to talk about.

Anyway -- happy Ace Week!

*This was before she came out as trans, and she was still using her deadname in public. So that may make it an uncomfortable watch. But it's still a good video, if you're up for it.
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(This is cross-posted from [personal profile] capri0mni)

Preface:

Not much more to say, here, except: Besides giving me a chance to write a more believable (to me) "And they fell in love, and were happy ever after" resolution, this exercise also gave me a chance to write more believable consequences for what happens when the singular head of government is thrown out of commission by a magic spell for a generation (or four -- I'm still haunted by the implications of Sleeping Beauty).

Also, in the original, we never know who "Iron Heinrich" is, or why he has that nickname, or why he shares the status of titular character, until the penultimate full paragraph of the story -- at the very beginning of a very ordinary journey to the king's palace, at a very ordinary pace. What could be a big, dramatic, moment is, instead, lumped in with the denouement.

I realized it would make more sense, from the characters' own point of view, if that moment came at the end of a long, extraordinary, journey (which also gave the two people at the center of the story actual time to become emotionally closer)

Where we left off:
When Heinrich came, at last, to say that it was time to go, the linden branch was no longer in his buttonhole. And the slightest of smiles passed between master and servant.


Under the Linden Tree, Part 5/5 (1,529 words) )

--End--

Here's the paragraph that inspired much of this story, from the Wikipedia article Lime Tree (aka Linden Tree) in Culture > Germanic Mythology (Which I looked up because I was curious as to why the Linden Tree was called out by name in my Grimm source):
Originally, local communities assembled not only to celebrate and dance under a linden tree, but to hold their judicial thing meetings there in order to restore justice and peace. It was believed that the tree would help unearth the truth. Thus the tree became associated with jurisprudence even after Christianization, such as in the case of the Gerichtslinde, and verdicts in rural Germany were frequently returned sub tilia (Unter der linden) until the Age of Enlightenment.


And from the Wikipedia article on the Lime (Linden) Tree, I learned that they can live up to 2,000 years old (!), and can be propagated by cuttings.

So, I kinda had to make those things into plot points, didn't I?

BTW, Here's a illustration of a mature Linden from 1840.
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(Cross-Posted to [personal profile] capri0mni)

Preface:

In that same, later, reread of the Grimm "House and Children's Tale" #1, where it dawned on me that the princess is both child-coded and objectified, I also noticed that (other than what the enchanted king says at the end) There. Is. No. Witch. in the Story. And, furthermore, what actually breaks the spell is access to human spaces, which the king cannot get for himself without help. It therefore works, for me, as a clear disability analog.

So, in this retelling, I've decided to make the lack of a witch explicit, to get away from the trope that Disability is always a punishment, or that there's always some specific person or event to "Blame" for it (hello, anti-vaxxers, I'm looking at you, and the toxic positivity people, you, too).

Where we left off:
No sooner were they back in the carriage than the coachman cracked his whip, and they sped off at an almost unnatural speed, the horses in full gallop before they even had taken three strides at a trot. The landscape outside the windows was nothing but a blur.

"Heinrich!" the young king called, "Must you drive with such haste?"

"I'm sorry, Your Majesty," his servant called back. "But if we do not pass through the Capital's gate by sunset, all is lost."


Under the Linden Tree, Part 4/5 (1,492 words) )

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(This post is cross-posted to [community profile] queerly_beloved)

Preface:

The Grimm tale I'm using as my source material for this retelling comes to a quick end after the king regains his human shape, and the princess is instantly happy to marry him at that point (even though she was filled with murderous rage less than a minute before). And from my aromantic/asexual perspective (and, to be fair, probably, my expectations as a reader of modern fiction), that's skipping past the most interesting part:

How do you get from "stranger" to "you disgust me!" to "maybe you're lovable, after all," when good looks are not enough to spark an initial attraction?

So this is the point where the story starts to veer off the most from the original, as I try to plot and then connect all the dots.

I made a conscious decision to use the archaic English You/Thou distinction, and not just because it's old-timey sounding. "You" (or Ye) is plural, and it's also used for people of higher rank than the speaker (it's the second person pronoun version of the Royal "We"). "Thou" is singular, and used for people of equal or lower rank -- and it's also used as term of endearment for loved ones and family. So it can be either an insult or an attempt at kindness, depending on who is saying it to whom.

And that got me thinking of how the youngest princess would have heard the differences between You and Thou. As a the daughter of the king, probably all of the courtiers, and servants in court (except for her immediately family) would have addressed her with "You." And she would have used "Thou" with everyone except visiting monarchs. But because she's the youngest daughter, she also knows that realpolitik means her father could marry her off to a baron or a knight if a treaty required it. So her sense of authority over her own life is wobbly.

(She uses "you" with the frog from the very beginning, because she realizes that magic is in play, there may be fae involved, and it's better to be safe than sorry)

Where we left off:
Her lady-in-waiting opened the door and poked her head around. "Good morning, Your Highness--" Her eyebrows rose barely a hair, and she (almost invisibly) mouthed: "frog?"

The princess bit her lip to keep from laughing at the absurdity. "Good morning, Margarete. Is breakfast ready?"

"Yes, Your Highness. His Majesty waits on you." She curtsied quickly and backed out the door.

The young king tugged at his sash, smoothing wrinkles that weren't there. "Well," he said, "they're expecting us, though probably not like this." He offered her his arm.

After a moment's hesitation, she took it.


Under the Linden Tree, Part 3 (1,466 words) )

(Back to Part 2)
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(This post is cross-posted to [personal profile] capri0mni)

Preface:

Back in 2012, when I was first exploring the cultural link between concepts of the monstrous, and cultural attitudes toward disability (and queerness), [personal profile] spiralsheep (no longer online) pointed me to a Master's thesis: "When a Knight meets a Dragon Maiden:
Human Identity and the Monstrous Animal Other," by Lydia Zeldenrust, and published online at Academia.Edu. Quote:
In general, the dragon maidens can be divided into two groups: the first is a rather large group in which the dragon maiden is waiting to be freed from her spell by means of a Perilous Kiss and then turns back into a human, the second group deals with a woman who turns into a half-dragon or serpent at specific times and is not to be seen by her husband in this state, but when this does happen she eventually becomes the animal.

And this was living in my head for several years before it clicked that all of the royal frog-man stories are basically gender-flipped versions of the Dragon Maiden tales.

The whole point of these encounters, according to Zeldenrust, was for the knight to recognize the human that is trapped inside the dragon form, and not to be confused into thinking its an actual dragon that needs to be killed. This is how they prove their right to the Divinely Ordained Social Privilege, somewhere between kings and angels.

(When I read that, all those encounters I'd had, where normate people said: "Oh, but I don't see you as Disabled, I see you as Human!" -- while I'm sitting in front of them in my wheelchair -- suddenly made sense: They're all white-knight wannabes, reassuring themselves that they've earned their normate privileges)

The problem with the Grimm Brothers' version of the story, though, is that the princess never recognizes the frog king as human until after he loses his frog-shaped body, and therefore (according to chivalric tradition) doesn't deserve her happy ending.

So I tweaked the spell, just a bit, so that it's reciprocity between human beings that breaks the spell, rather than simply sharing physical space with the most beautiful person ever.

Where we left off:
As if struck by a sudden thought, he turned to the frog tucked under the princess's arm, and said, with a grand sweep of his arm: "It would be a great honor to me, Sir Frog, if you would stay, and be my daughter's special guest at dinner, tonight."

Her two elder sisters, bringing up the rear of their little parade, giggled behind their hands.

The frog shifted his weight under her arm and opened his mouth as if to speak. But in the end, said nothing.

Galantha was ready to object on his behalf, and her own. But her father looked her in the eye with a frown, daring her to disobey his wishes a second time that day.

She dropped her gaze to the floor. "Yes. Of course it would be my honor. Please, be my guest."

No sooner were those words out of her mouth than the strange, horrid, feeling strengthened once more, spreading from the frog like ink from a tipped bottle. She fought to keep from hurling him to the floor that very instant.


'Under the Linden Tree' )

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(This post is cross-posted to [personal profile] capri0mni)

Preface:

This is in response to the Grimm Brothers tale The Frog King, or Iron Heinrich, specifically, which is not any more "authentic" than any other version you may have learned (regardless of the reputation that the Grimm fellows crafted for themselves, for political and commercial reason). Stories of royal men enchanted into the shape of frogs, who make some sort of deal with young women (or girls), abound all over Europe. But this is the version that bothered me the most. So this is the version I sat down to write an answer to.

Here's the translation that I used as my source material

The biggest thing that bothered me about this version is that the princess is child-coded (the youngest daughter, who weeps uncontrollably over the loss of a plaything), and yet, is objectified for her beauty -- the opening sentence (as translated by D. L. Ashliman) includes this line:
"the sun itself, who, indeed, has seen so much, marveled every time it shone upon her face."

And then, there's the fact that, instead of a kiss that turns the frog-shaped king back into a man-shaped king, it's this (again, the D.L. Ashliman translation):
With that she became bitterly angry and threw him against the wall with all her might. "Now you will have your peace, you disgusting frog!"

And once he's beautiful, like her, she's happy to go to bed with him, and marry him, at her father's command (still child-coded, remember).

(Aside: it's actually one of the folk motifs that pops up now and then, that, in order to free an enchanted someone from an animal shape, the animal body must be killed. But it's often after the talking animal companion/guide and the human protagonist have become close friends: "Please chop off my head, now" "Are you insane? I can't do that!" etc.)

Naturally, as someone who is demi-/asexual, aromantic, and desire repulsed reading this version with the critical eye of an adult turned this fairy tale into something that was not just unbelievable, but a horror story.

So I gave myself this challenge:
Without changing the components of the magical spell, or the span of time the Grimm version covers: rewrite it, and shuffle bits around, so the happy ending actually makes sense, even if the viewpoint character is aro-ace, like me.


Anyway, I thought it would end up being ~5,000 words. It ended up being ~7,500, which is straining against the bounds of "Short Story," and brushing up against "Novella." So I've broken it into chapters.

Under the Linden Tree (part 1/5; 1,615 words) )

(Chapter two tomorrow!)
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I just uploaded a buuuuunch of Pride-themed Dreamsheep Icons right over here at [community profile] dreamsheep; they're free for everyone to use, so if you see one you like, feel free to nab it! Just please credit yours truly in the notes somewhere 👍 Also, if you don't see your identity, let me know and I'll see about making you an icon! (Within reason.)

(Includes a Pride Dreamsheep based on [personal profile] capri0mni's Disability Pride flag!)
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The list of explicitly queer characters in Miraculous Ladybug now numbers, I believe, six. Show creator Thomas Astruc said on Twitter ages ago that Rose and Juleka are dating; he also said ages ago Nathaniel and Marc are dating, and confirmed the tweet from a genderfluid friend of his that Marc, being based on that friend, is genderfluid; and earlier today he tweeted that Max is ace and Alix is aro.

This revelation surprises approximately no one.
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Name: Lise, though I've also been known to answer to Sel or Jagu
Age: 41
Pronouns: she/her
Identities: queer, Chicana/Latina, polyamorous, multiply invisibly disabled, pagan, witch, grey-ace, biromantic, grandma, writer of both fictional nonsense and musical geekery
Other accounts: [tumblr.com profile] yuuana [twitter.com profile] emorenosagt [archiveofourown.org profile] Selah
My interests: writing of fiction (both fandom and original), all things visual kei, Tarot (I collect decks but also read the Tarot professionally), paganism and witchery, gardening, my cats, my wife, anything that will help me survive/escape the hell that is living in Lindsey Graham's district.

Most of my writing features characters of one stripe of queer or another!
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Name: Ann

Age: mid-50s

Pronouns: She/her/hers, They/them/theirs

Identities: Cis woman, White, congenitally physically disabled, Asexual/demisexual, aromantic, Pan-Platonic, Queer

Other accounts:[tumblr.com profile] aegipan-omnicorn, [youtube.com profile] capriuni (my YouTube channel is mostly empty of videos, but I leave comments on others' videos occasionally)

My interests: (specifically regarding the focus of this community) Disability Rights and representation, and how ableism and disableism feed into other bigotries, especially sexual and gender expression. (more general interests: writing (poetry and original fiction in the "fairy tale" genre), laymen-level science and environmentalism, following pop culture through fandom discussions for movies and shows I will probably never watch (does this make me a meta-fan, or a para-fan?), leftist politics and philosophy, doodling/casual art
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Phew, okay! I've got our community tags up. Or, well, as many as I can think of, at any rate. I'm sure there's a bunch I missed, and fandom tags in particular I'll have to add as we go.

Anyone who wants to is welcome to look over the tag list and request that I add something to it, especially if it's something I missed. This was just everything I could come up with off the top of my head, and while it covers a lot of stuff, I know I'm not perfect and didn't think of everything or everyone. Please also let me know if you spot any spelling mistakes or typos; I'm still not entirely used to the keyboard on my new laptop, which will account for some slipups, but definitely not all of them.

Let's see here, what else. Oh! CW is short for Content Warning, and warns for types of content that people might not want to deal with or, in the case of NSFW (literally: Not Safe For Work), is the type of thing they might get in trouble for having a record of on a work computer. Media is for reviews and shoutouts about various forms of media that have representation of us, good and bad. Everything else should be fairly self-explanatory, I think.

Since Dreamwidth has a tag limit of 1000 for free accounts (1500 for paid, 2000 for premium paid), there may come a time when I have to combine some lesser-used tags in order to preserve some more-used tags. We've still got close to 900 tags to go before reaching the free account limit, though, so I'm pretty sure we'll be okay for a while.

Thanks to everyone who's joined so far, and if you have any feedback, I would be very interested in it!

Edit: It looks like I have tags hidden somehow at the moment? Lemme go take a look around, see how I need to fix that.

Edit 2: Apparently all unused tags were marked as "private" in the tag management thing. There's probably a better way to fix that, but it's late and I'm tired, so my current workaround is: Literally tag this post with every single tag available. (For the record, I tried doing that and then untagging everything, but the tags went right back to being private, so that shortcut is a no-go.)
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